Seems I’ve been learning life lessons for so long now. I was a teenager when people told me that true happiness comes from within. They told me I wouldn’t find happiness from external things. When I fell in love at 16, they warned me, you have to be a whole person before you can be in a healthy relationship. They said patience was a virtue. They said, slow down, and don’t try to grow up so fast. Well, 22 years later, I’m all grown up, and still learning these lessons.
Why is it that the things we want so much don’t come to us easily, and the things we don’t care much for, continue to be offered up to us? How can you know so much about how to live, yet you struggle so much to implement it into your life? How do you know what your true purpose is? These are the questions that have kept me up at night lately. They say when you are in alignment things won’t be so much of a struggle. They warn of self will run riot. They encourage you to share your gifts and to maximize your usefulness to others to find your way forward.
The Buddha says suffering comes from attachment and craving. We want what we don’t have, and as soon as we get something we want, we live in fear of losing it. In my life I have chased many things, such as the high that comes from drugs, shopping, food, and relationships. I have chased education and sports to be the best and brightest student or athlete. I have chased my career, money, and fame. I have been through much suffering, and I humble myself to you to share that my lesson learning is far from over.
They say we are all just spiritual beings having a human experience, that we are all just walking each other home. God, the Universe, Life Force Energy, Nature, whatever you want to call it, will show me the way. We learn, we grow, we digress, we suffer, we learn some more, and then we do it again, until the lesson is learned. How kind the universe is to continue to catch us, in its infinite wisdom, as we go astray, and gently, lovingly, bring us back into alignment, providing us with new and old lessons, until we come full circle, back to ourselves, back to that which cannot be named, that has all the love and wholeness we seek, so we can begin again.